Hurt, Hurting!!

Hey, ya all, well its Saturday afternoon and it is a beautiful day, Not to hot or cold... I am posting this from my back porch, we brought the chairs from the front to the back and are having a blast just sitting... I am listening to Reachfm radio as i write this... Well it has been one tough week... The Lord is breaking me... I thought I would do it my self...but it seems that the Lord wanted to go deeper "ouch" but somehow I know that it will be alright... God is on the throne and His spirit lives in me... Since coming back from the Pastor's conference in June... I had a change of heart... We revampted our Leadership.... We had an all night prayer meeting.."awesome" the vision I have for CCL is moving foward but the enemy is hot on my trail and God seems to be wanting to teach me a very wonderful yet hard lesson. This is what death feels like... My trust is in the Lord "really" i have nothing to else to hold on to... Jesus is the Rock and I must be broken if God wants to really work out here... My prayer is that i learn very quickly what God wants me to learn and move foward....
anyways...
I love you...
Pastor Ben